| Whats wrong with me | [Mar. 30th, 2005|08:14 pm] |
| its 8:14 and no sign of her, i fell aslleep for 1 hr I feel like such an asshole to her. Why did i act like that i keep asking myself Why did you act like that, all i cvould think about is how she hurt me, and who she was slept with. Its like god whats wrong with me am i crazy. Am i insane, is this all a dream. am i a pyschofranic. Am i delussional what the fuck is wrong with me. I am hurting the only girl i love and i dont understand why. I keep on thinking i have to hide, i have to hide somewhere where she cant find meshe knows so much about me. God what even possedsed me to say that. Do i have MPD. what the fuck is wrong with me ricky. I need to find out. I cant hurt her. I would never wanna hurt her. She means so much, but i need to know why i acted like that.Kelli, im so sorry i acted like an asshole. I dont get whats wrong with me. Is it that i have become so conditioned to you hurting me. That physically cant let you close. Or is it that ive told you so much about me i dunno what to do in person im so sorry im like this. |
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