Things people never tell you. But they don’t hide.

Things people never tell you. But they don’t hide.

So, its Friday, i wait to get picked up by my grandma, and i must admit, my first year of true financial independence, emotional, and physically independence, you learn a lot, what to deal with. What not to deal with. What you were shielded from for good reason. You learn how child like some people are, and you learn what type of people are users and addicts of all sorts.

This week, and today i sadly learned that 2 friends, perhaps the whole family is stuck on crack, and as time goes, it will allow me to distance myself from them, as much as i need to get my desktop from the place, and my router, it shocks me sometimes how, I am only 22 yet? I feel like i have a maturity beyond my older friends years. Is it because i got exposed to so much when i was younger? I believe it is, but in so case now a days i cant fully emotionally connect in a relationship. I try, but i cant not right now. Maybe i am still burned, maybe the world has problems, I know i will besuccessful at some point in my life, and i know what i need to do to get myself out of the holes i get myself into. Next month, i get to try to apply, for woodcraft, since they charge 30% of your income. And i will be far far away from the drama ville hell that is Countryside Apartments/Hidden Trails.

I just feel so mislead from my raising, at a certain point. Because, i was taught that the older, the wiser, and more mature if not more experienced. And i firstly have learned in a year that is not true. Its what you were raised with that makes you the stronger, what surprises me is, Everyone i know is some sort of addict, either to drugs, or alcohol, or love/Relationships. And i have neither, my own addiction i assume is my disconnection from life possibly? Or that my addictions are electronics, computers, and the Internet. So my great question is? Who is the adult of me? I havent met a person, that is a challenge or i feel equals me in my desires, or my passions. So who is really out there.

Originally posted on ricky1146.vox.com