So As I really didn’t finish the last post writing about how I grew up & was raised I shall Firstly not to sound so high strung , stuck up or a complete sardonic fool.
First let’s explain & I don’t want those to pity me. Or swon over the idea that here is a helpless guy that needs his good deeds filled.
I was raised by my Grandma, the reason for this is a mixed bag. My mom as I knew her was not the best person at the time (her being 21) In raising me. She had told me one point before her dying of breast cancer that she did not want me. Which is why she let my grandma take over. This is where we shall begin.
My grandma raised me up on the cliche 1940’s-1950’s style of life. That & the ideal of ole legendary figures such as Camelot King Arthur, Men of Regal statuor. Nothing less in want.
I was raised do as the girl wants or asks. I was also raised under the idea that it is a man’s role to do everything such as provide to assist to help & to plan very well into the future for everything.
Growing up the movies I watched were what? Who framed Roger Rabbitt, The Sword in the Stone & a host of other things. Though I came to adore First Knight. & others. That glorified the ideal viruous ready to die for a cause guy.
Up to 19 years old I kept that mentality style of life, I still partly do. Just not to the extreme. I lessened my extreme because, a old flame in her drama years put me into legal troubles. Which kicked me into line of do not take things so seriously. & relax
After 19 I just go with the flow, Since becoming a freemason, I try to return the right aspects back in with certain religous portions thereSince my beliefs are turning into a mix between Christian & Judiasim. Some may call this Gnostic Christianity, there are certain things I do reject in Christianity as of late as I have dug through Gnostic doctrines.
Of all this I consider myself to be a moderate guy. Not a extreme guy. However when it comes to morality, I am pretty hardcore, when it comes to old fashioned thought I pretty much am there while within reason. Morality is my ashtar, it is smoothed from the get go.
I feel in many ways my grandma made me a mason without really ever telling me. Since things were done so strictly. Much like ironically a jewish family.
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